Not Sure

Well I have to be at my internship in less then 7 hours but I cannot sleep right now. I am wide awake watching “The West Wing,” which is a great show by the way, and I cannot get this simple thought off my mind and that is what am I supposed to do when I graduate college. It is a tough thought that we all must deal with at some time. Now of course I feel called to ministry but I am not sure I feel called to seminary or even called to be a pastor of any kind. Of course I have spent the last 5 years of my life working in ministry of some sort, whether it be from youth ministry, to campus ministry, to recreation ministry. But could that have been all God had called for me to be in Church ministry? Is it possible that God is calling me to a different purpose now? I would say that all things are possible but that I am very confused at this moment.

I know where ever I end up that I am going to do it for the Glory of God. Everything I do I want to share the love the of Christ with people and I do not believe you have to just work in a church in order to do that. Sometimes I think people go to work in the church just because it is a comfort zone and you do not really have to do anything to mess that comfort up. Sure you have to get out of your comfort zone once a month to go knock on doors or maybe go on a mission trip during the summer but from 9-5 you are usually sitting in your office at the church. Now do not think I am trying to down play working at the church because Ministers do a lot of good and not every church is how I just described but most are. I don’t know I am just confused at this moment so ignore my useless babble.

Well not sure where I will be in 6 months or if I will even still be breathing but I guess that is up to God to decide. I guess all I will do is put one foot in front of the other and keep seeking to give God all the glory. I guess no one knows what tomorrow holds and today is always the tomorrow you worried about yesterday. So who knows…………….