Honesty

This last week I herd a person stand up and say that the one thing that was bugging them about their bible study is honesty. People sit in a group of there peers and act like nothing is wrong and they have it all together when that's not true. This event was of course at a bible study which is where the rest of this blog comes from. This person got me thinking because they were completely truthful.

When we look at the church today it is bad to show brokenness or reveal what you are dealing with while being there. Pastors cannot reveal things they struggle with because then some church members may get upset and not want them to be their minister. So they have to sugarcoat it like sin never happens to them. And then when we hear that one screws up you call for them to resign. I believe this can be a problem for a non-believer. Because they look in the church and it looks like a bunch of perfect people who do not struggle with anything and they do not think they can live up to that standard.

What if the people in the church were completely 100 percent honest with each other. What if i walked into church walked in front of people and said I struggle with Adultery or that I struggle with love of self or at times even question God. Would the church look down on me for that or would they embrace me in my problem and open up and say that they indeed struggle with that also. Because honestly no one is perfect and we are all broken in someway or another. It is brokenness that leads us to the Cross of Christ, and brokenness is a state that I want to be in everyday of my life because it is when I am broken that I truly rely on God and not rely on myself.

So I want to be honest here and let everyone know I am not perfect and never will. I am going to be a minister someday and I pray my honesty will help show Gods grace. Because honestly I do not deserve grace. I have screwed up in so many ways in my life that there is no reason that I should be forgiven for it. I hope that all of you can be honest also because there are people out there who just want someone who is dealing with what they are dealing with or someone who can admit that they use to struggle with that but have been healed or are past that struggle.

Remember brokenness is the state it takes to truly have to rely on Christ, so honestly pray to be broken to the point you cannot be broken anymore. Trust me it is a prayer that will change your life if you mean it. You will Love God 1,000,000 times more after it.

I love you all
Grace and Peace

The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart,
O God, you will not despise.
(Psalm 51:17)

Tough Times

Life is tough!!! I use that with three exclamation points because as everyone knows one just does not explain how tough it can be at times. I look back over the last year and I see the toughs times I have gone through and maybe at the time did not think I would ever see the end of that tunnel. I watched a dear love one unresponsive in the hospital after a unsuccessful attempt at suicide, then watched that love one come back around and regret the decision they had made. I watched as my parents had to deal with my Dad waiting to be accepted for disability and not being able to bring home any type of income while waiting, and then me having to deal with attempting to pay some of the much needed bills of theirs. These times were tough and still continue to be tough. My Dad was given a court date for his disability but it was postponed so now almost 2 years later he still doesn't have an income and its still tough on my family.

These events are TOUGH and a lot of time it seems like there is no end to the madness but there is. I am in good health and unless there is a freak accident(which could happen)I should survive many more years and look back and laugh about all these so called tough times. And it could also be that in the future I look at something I am going through and wish I was going through something easy like I am right now. Who knows only the future can tell.

But I want everyone who reads this to be encouraged because honestly what ever hardships today brings there is always tomorrow. And tomorrow is so much brighter than today. And the one thing that can make that day brighter is Christ. So rest in him because his path is so much better then the one we choose. And the path he leads us on is perfect but we always want to stray away from that and try to do it our own way. Be encourages because he wants to lead you through the tough times.

I love you all
In Christ