Recently I have felt that God has been calling me to fall back in love with His word. So I have decided to use my blog as an outlet for my adventure with Gods word. I am over the next 16 days going to write daily on each chapter of Mark. I pray through this that God renews a passion in you for his word in the same way he is doing for me.
A little back story on the book of mark before I start this adventure with you. John Mark who is believed to be the author of this book was a relative of Barnabas and he is said to have written down what Peter had told him about the stories of Jesus. This book is considered to be the earliest written of the four gospels, and estimated to have been written around 70 ad. This book is the shortest of the Gospels and does not have the birth of Christ and any teachings of Christ after his resurrection. Now of course there is Mark 16:9-20 which most scholars believe was added later and early manuscripts do not have and every bible that is not KJV has a little note that says the same. This section does have a possible teaching of Jesus after his resurrection but it is disputed more than it is called reliable. But I will talk more about that section in 16 days so stick with me and you will be able to read more about that.
Mark 1 starts out with a verse from Isaiah about John the Baptist who came before Jesus to prepare the way. John the Baptist was preaching and teaching repentance because he knew that Jesus would soon be coming to redeem the world. A verse that made a big impact on me from this section comes in verse 7. It is John talking about Jesus and he says that he is not even worthy to bend down and untie his sandals. It is easy to forget how holy Christ is and how honestly we are not worthy to even speak to him but he makes us worthy by his death on his cross. Even though John the Baptist said these things it was him that God used to baptize his son Jesus.
The first chapter also shows a very brief moment where Jesus calls out to Simon, Andrew, James and John and calls them to come and follow Him and he will make them fishers of men. Now this is always interesting to look at and many people always asks the questions would you drop everything immediately for Jesus. Now many people believe that these disciples had already heard of Jesus and some may have even been followers of John the Baptist. That is not an obvious from this scripture but ether way it is amazing how quickly they would leave their jobs behind to follow Him.
The next part of this chapter was also very meaningful to me in the fact that it is where you begin to see Jesus compassion for people. He goes to the synagogue and heals a man who has an evil spirit in him and after that goes to the house of Simon and Andrew and heals their mother along with lots of people who came to the door that night. This is such an amazing thought because it shows that if people come to Christ he truly does care and wants to help them. How often to do we come to him with the faith these people have that they will be healed? It is an interesting thought because I do not believe we do it enough.
In verse 35 Jesus wakes up in the morning to go to a place alone to pray. He did not even let his followers know where he was going. It is always interesting because in scripture jesus always goes alone to pray. How often do we truly get away to pray? Jesus even did it a lot. The chapter ends with Jesus healing a man with leprosy and Jesus tells him to not go and tell anyone of this but the man does not listen and tells everyone. Because of this Jesus stayed outside of cities instead of them because of the crowds.
So closing this first chapter a couple questions come to my mind for myself and you to think about. First is when is the last time we truly thought how Holy Christ is? He is so Holy that John the Baptist says he is not worthy to untie his sandals. The second question is how often to do we have faith that when we come to Christ he can help us like he did the people with illness? Thirdly is when is the last time you got alone and prayed and looked into Gods word? Even Jesus went to a quiet place to pray. So if you made it this far I hope god has renewed your passion for his word and that you will look back tomorrow for Mark Chapter 2.
Much love
Brent
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Listen or Ignore?
I have recently began to realize that we all have one choice in life and this choice is one that is essential to everything we do and everything we may become. That choice is whether to listen up or ignore everything. Think about that, this choice can be used in every situation that we encounter in life. It could be as simple as a friend trying to talk to us about anything from a serious situation to rebuking us. It could involve classes and whether we should listen up or just play on our laptops and ignore the professors. And of course it comes into the most essential relationship that we can encounter in this life and that is with Jesus Christ. I will even say that this is the easiest relationship to flip flop both sides of this choice in life on. This is a very sad reality but I pray the words on this page God uses to not just impact myself but also you the reader. So here is your first use of this choice in life since I pointed it out. Will you keep on reading or will you ignore the rest of my words?
The word “Listen” is used in the bible over 400 times. It is something that if you were to sit down and read all the verses that have the word listen in them you will see many things. You could start in the garden when Adam listened to Eve and ate the fruit, or you could go to Matthew and see that Jesus is telling the crowds to listen and understand. In almost every instance the reason the word is used and comes about from ether God talking or a command that God said that was disobeyed. Like the case with Adam and Eve God told them to not eat of the tree of truth and knowledge but yet Adam listened to Eve instead of God. It is also used in Mark 9 with the transfiguration up on a high mountain and a voice came from the clouds and told Peter, John and James to listen to Jesus the son of God. The scriptures show a God who wants us to listen to him because he does truly know what is best for us.
The second option which is ignoring everything is the situation that we fall into the most amount of time. Let me just point out some prime examples of scripture that at times I ignore more then I actually do what it says. First is the great commission in Matthew 28:19. How often do I truly go reach the lost or step out of my comfort zone to do what God has called? Honestly not much, this is one example of myself ignoring God. Another great one comes from James 1:19 where it says be quick to listen and slow to speak. If anyone knows me at times I am opposite of that and though God has brought me a long way in this area I still have long ways to go. These are just 2 small examples in my life of how I ignore God at times. How many other things in scriptures would I be able to find that I do not follow if I tried? Probably a lot but I would rather not bore you with those.
The whole point of this blog is about the choice we have. Will we listen up and do what God is calling us to do or will we just simply ignore it. I honestly am not sure what we as people will do. I am curious to see what would happen if we would listen up. I know one thing and that is that emptiness that never seems to go away would truly cease. God promises fruits of the spirit if we seek him and one of those is joy.
So as I close this out I guess the question comes down to will you listen or will just ignore God?
The word “Listen” is used in the bible over 400 times. It is something that if you were to sit down and read all the verses that have the word listen in them you will see many things. You could start in the garden when Adam listened to Eve and ate the fruit, or you could go to Matthew and see that Jesus is telling the crowds to listen and understand. In almost every instance the reason the word is used and comes about from ether God talking or a command that God said that was disobeyed. Like the case with Adam and Eve God told them to not eat of the tree of truth and knowledge but yet Adam listened to Eve instead of God. It is also used in Mark 9 with the transfiguration up on a high mountain and a voice came from the clouds and told Peter, John and James to listen to Jesus the son of God. The scriptures show a God who wants us to listen to him because he does truly know what is best for us.
The second option which is ignoring everything is the situation that we fall into the most amount of time. Let me just point out some prime examples of scripture that at times I ignore more then I actually do what it says. First is the great commission in Matthew 28:19. How often do I truly go reach the lost or step out of my comfort zone to do what God has called? Honestly not much, this is one example of myself ignoring God. Another great one comes from James 1:19 where it says be quick to listen and slow to speak. If anyone knows me at times I am opposite of that and though God has brought me a long way in this area I still have long ways to go. These are just 2 small examples in my life of how I ignore God at times. How many other things in scriptures would I be able to find that I do not follow if I tried? Probably a lot but I would rather not bore you with those.
The whole point of this blog is about the choice we have. Will we listen up and do what God is calling us to do or will we just simply ignore it. I honestly am not sure what we as people will do. I am curious to see what would happen if we would listen up. I know one thing and that is that emptiness that never seems to go away would truly cease. God promises fruits of the spirit if we seek him and one of those is joy.
So as I close this out I guess the question comes down to will you listen or will just ignore God?
Friday, August 27, 2010
Passion?
Well I have started to write about 7 blogs before I started writing this one. I have so much junk I feel like I want to talk about but for some reason when I start to write the words do not come out on the paper. Maybe I should try to work on that, but who knows. I was just sitting here looking at my last blog and it made me start to think about passion. I am not talking about the Passion that 20 thousand college kids go to every year to hope to get re-energized for Christ. I am talking about my own personal passions in life. Every one of us has passions that we have never told anyone, because for some reason some of the things that drive us in life may not be what people expect. For example it has taking me awhile since being in college to convince people that I have a passion for music and worship. It has taken God using me to actually lead worship at churches or campus ministries to get people to see that. But we also have passions in life that are very wrong and sinful in many ways. This is what I would like to write about for a little bit, the passions that pull us from who our primary passion should be and that is Christ.
Since I am about to graduate from WKU I have begun to look at my life in a different way and to look at what some of my passions are. I begun to notice that most of the things that I think would be hard to live without are actually pulling me away from God. It does not matter what it is, it could range from girls to movies, to studying, anything. I have begun to realize that many things are pulling me from the one who came down and rescued me. I think if you looked deep into your heart you would see the same thing I am writing about. If you want to test if your passions are right or wrong ask this simple question and answer it honestly: If God asked you to give up whatever that thing is would you be able to do it? Just look at what we as followers of God have become. We say we could sacrifice everything to God but yet we never actually do it and when God says surrender it because his will is greater we still hold on to what we should let go.
I know this is hard thing to think about, if it was not hard I would not be writing about it. Just imagine what it would be like to have our only passion be Jesus Christ. The sad thing is that I can imagine that some people reading this would say that that actually sounds a little boring and not interesting. I know people believe that because I also believe that sometimes. But God has a great purpose for us, but we have to be willing to surrender ourselves, our desires, everything to Him. Will it be easy? Of course not. Will it get easier with time? Cannot answer that question because I believe Satan will just try harder to get you to slip up, but I do know that Christ never leaves or forsakes us and that he will help us in those times.
So I as I close this tonight I pray you will take sometime to look deep into who you are and ask Christ to examine that also. All the deep parts of your heart that you have never let anyone see. Examine who you are and see if there is anything else you need to surrender. And I promise there is something, if there was not anything than you would be perfect and that is something none of us will ever be till we sit before the throne of God.
I love you all, let me know if there is anyway I could pray for you all.
Brent Phillips
Since I am about to graduate from WKU I have begun to look at my life in a different way and to look at what some of my passions are. I begun to notice that most of the things that I think would be hard to live without are actually pulling me away from God. It does not matter what it is, it could range from girls to movies, to studying, anything. I have begun to realize that many things are pulling me from the one who came down and rescued me. I think if you looked deep into your heart you would see the same thing I am writing about. If you want to test if your passions are right or wrong ask this simple question and answer it honestly: If God asked you to give up whatever that thing is would you be able to do it? Just look at what we as followers of God have become. We say we could sacrifice everything to God but yet we never actually do it and when God says surrender it because his will is greater we still hold on to what we should let go.
I know this is hard thing to think about, if it was not hard I would not be writing about it. Just imagine what it would be like to have our only passion be Jesus Christ. The sad thing is that I can imagine that some people reading this would say that that actually sounds a little boring and not interesting. I know people believe that because I also believe that sometimes. But God has a great purpose for us, but we have to be willing to surrender ourselves, our desires, everything to Him. Will it be easy? Of course not. Will it get easier with time? Cannot answer that question because I believe Satan will just try harder to get you to slip up, but I do know that Christ never leaves or forsakes us and that he will help us in those times.
So I as I close this tonight I pray you will take sometime to look deep into who you are and ask Christ to examine that also. All the deep parts of your heart that you have never let anyone see. Examine who you are and see if there is anything else you need to surrender. And I promise there is something, if there was not anything than you would be perfect and that is something none of us will ever be till we sit before the throne of God.
I love you all, let me know if there is anyway I could pray for you all.
Brent Phillips
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Will the real FOLLOWERS please stand up........
Yes the title is cheesy to this post and I have to admit that for some reason the old Eminem song came into my head when I was thinking about writing this post. I just keep coming back to this thought that very few people around these day would people consider to be a true and honest followers of Christ. Now, I know everyone’s pride inside always at this point in reading something like this tells them that they must be talking about other people. But I want you to take a deep look inside yourself because I feel like this is something we all need to take a look into. If when you look deep inside yourself you see your own desires versus that of what Christ wants then we need to check out hearts. I continually look at myself and start thinking that I need to do something to become the follower that Christ longs for, to finally pray the way David prayed and to serve the way Paul served. But so often I end up fading back instead of letting Christ take control because I feel like I am the only one trying. I believe everyone reading this note has felt the same way when they feel God pulling their own hearts.
I am curious, to be honest, what a true honest follower of Christ looks like. I see what the bible says about it and I know what some people in history have done when they let Christ take control and finally let go. But I am curious what it looks like right before my eyes. Would I notice? Would I call that person crazy or radical? Would I step up and join them in living the way God wants? I can not honestly answer these questions and I think honestly that many of you cannot ether, but I know something, and that is that as followers of Christ we have a longing in our heart for more. A desire to get out of the mediocrity of this life, and to finally step up and let God use us for something that truly does matter.
I agree that it is hard at times and it makes it hard when you fall into a group of people that have let the complacent Christian walk be a part of their lives. Complacency at times is a hard beast to overcome and to over come it takes a lot of prayer and guidance from God. I just sit hear wondering what if we got over our complacency? What if we let God breaks us apart and reform us the way he would like to versus how we want to be pieced together? What if the question who are the real followers of Christ never had to be asked again? I sit here thinking about how many tables God would turn over in front of me before I finally get that his way is always better then mine.
This world needs Christ and there is no way around that and I believe we have stayed silent to long. We are not called to hide behind the walls of our churches or our campus ministries we are called to go. And sometimes that means it will not be safe. Just look at Paul in Acts 14:19-20. He gets stoned and dragged outside the city where he was preaching and what was the first thing he did when he got back up? Walked directly back into the town that just stoned him and dragged him and many people became disciples because of that. I truly believe God is calling us today to do some radical things for his name. And it is time we stand up and honestly mean it when we say “God use me.” Not another meaningless prayer we say every Sunday at church but a honest sincere prayer. Let us rise for God and let us go and change this world for His name. God is calling, will you listen?
“God is not looking for nibblers of the possible but for grabbers of the impossible.” - C.T. Studd
“He MUST become greater, I MUST become less” John 3:30
“Father make in me a crisis man. Bring those I contact to a decision, let me not be a single road. Make me a fork that man must turn one way or another on facing Christ in me"" Jim Elliot
I am curious, to be honest, what a true honest follower of Christ looks like. I see what the bible says about it and I know what some people in history have done when they let Christ take control and finally let go. But I am curious what it looks like right before my eyes. Would I notice? Would I call that person crazy or radical? Would I step up and join them in living the way God wants? I can not honestly answer these questions and I think honestly that many of you cannot ether, but I know something, and that is that as followers of Christ we have a longing in our heart for more. A desire to get out of the mediocrity of this life, and to finally step up and let God use us for something that truly does matter.
I agree that it is hard at times and it makes it hard when you fall into a group of people that have let the complacent Christian walk be a part of their lives. Complacency at times is a hard beast to overcome and to over come it takes a lot of prayer and guidance from God. I just sit hear wondering what if we got over our complacency? What if we let God breaks us apart and reform us the way he would like to versus how we want to be pieced together? What if the question who are the real followers of Christ never had to be asked again? I sit here thinking about how many tables God would turn over in front of me before I finally get that his way is always better then mine.
This world needs Christ and there is no way around that and I believe we have stayed silent to long. We are not called to hide behind the walls of our churches or our campus ministries we are called to go. And sometimes that means it will not be safe. Just look at Paul in Acts 14:19-20. He gets stoned and dragged outside the city where he was preaching and what was the first thing he did when he got back up? Walked directly back into the town that just stoned him and dragged him and many people became disciples because of that. I truly believe God is calling us today to do some radical things for his name. And it is time we stand up and honestly mean it when we say “God use me.” Not another meaningless prayer we say every Sunday at church but a honest sincere prayer. Let us rise for God and let us go and change this world for His name. God is calling, will you listen?
“God is not looking for nibblers of the possible but for grabbers of the impossible.” - C.T. Studd
“He MUST become greater, I MUST become less” John 3:30
“Father make in me a crisis man. Bring those I contact to a decision, let me not be a single road. Make me a fork that man must turn one way or another on facing Christ in me"" Jim Elliot
Monday, August 2, 2010
Honesty....
So recently I have realized that my priorities are really messed up. I have become the person who on the day of judgment would look at God and tell him that I have done things in his name and have cried out holy holy but God’s response would be that he never knew me. It is so simple to look at our lives and see how at times we all fall into these categories. For me I have put so many things ahead of God and even though I still speak his name and even though I try to do things in his name, I am dying. I have begun to scream out but it seems at times like no one hears me. That is because it has always been easier to hide the truth about our hearts. Really think about that, no one in this world wants to be honest with people because honesty brings heartache. People do not take it well and if you are being honest about yourself people at times try to diagnose you and tell you how to get better when a lot of times you just want someone to listen. We have forgot the verse from James 1 that says be slow to speak and quick to listen. Sometimes we just need people to listen, and someone who truly cares. I have to admit that I have been doing things away from God a lot. To be honest I have been lying about how much I have been to church since leaving my last church. I know I am called to ministry and I care about the body but it can be hard because the last church messed me up to the core. This happens a lot but sometimes it can be more difficult then we ever admit.
I also have to admit that it is hard to get honest and true with God when no one around has truly surrendered it all to God. I know people that fight God on the calling in their lives and thus follow their own paths versus God. I know people that have begun to doubt it all because it is much easier to be in pain then to seek and find true joy in something. I know people that are like me that proclaim Gods name but do not mean it at all, and I think we may all fall into this boat. I truly believe that God wants something amazing from us but we are to stuck in our ways. I am to hung up on the fact that at times I believe it is all about me, when all honesty it is all about Christ. I do not deserve any praise but he does, he demands it. Even though we do not like that at times I think the thing that holds me back and everyone back is the idea that we are better then God. We try to make ourselves God, and because of this we do not confess when we are wrong and we do not confess our sins and we put ourselves in this idea of being perfect even though we are broken and falling more apart everyday. This life is hard and no one will ever say it was easy but I do believe that if we get our lives right with Christ even though there will be pain and heartache there will be joy. I do not know how to explain that but I know it is true. I will close this blog with a verse to think about. I love you all, even if you do not believe that.
James 1:22 “Do not merely listen to the words and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says.
I also have to admit that it is hard to get honest and true with God when no one around has truly surrendered it all to God. I know people that fight God on the calling in their lives and thus follow their own paths versus God. I know people that have begun to doubt it all because it is much easier to be in pain then to seek and find true joy in something. I know people that are like me that proclaim Gods name but do not mean it at all, and I think we may all fall into this boat. I truly believe that God wants something amazing from us but we are to stuck in our ways. I am to hung up on the fact that at times I believe it is all about me, when all honesty it is all about Christ. I do not deserve any praise but he does, he demands it. Even though we do not like that at times I think the thing that holds me back and everyone back is the idea that we are better then God. We try to make ourselves God, and because of this we do not confess when we are wrong and we do not confess our sins and we put ourselves in this idea of being perfect even though we are broken and falling more apart everyday. This life is hard and no one will ever say it was easy but I do believe that if we get our lives right with Christ even though there will be pain and heartache there will be joy. I do not know how to explain that but I know it is true. I will close this blog with a verse to think about. I love you all, even if you do not believe that.
James 1:22 “Do not merely listen to the words and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says.
Friday, July 30, 2010
Last Weekend
Disclaimer: I write the best when I am upset, or in deep thought. If you feel like at any point in this post I am talking bad about you or anything like in this post, I can honestly say that was not my intention. And if you know me, you know if I wanted to speak ill of someone I would own up to it.
Well this last weekend myself and 5 other people went to lead a “Youth Revival” at a church in Rockport KY. I have to admit that going there was not really what any of us really wanted to do. Most of us were really confused and thought a million different things instead of what we were actually supposed to be doing there. This brought about some very negative attitudes going into the weekend. Myself and the three other guys got there in the early afternoon on Friday and found out that just the 4 of us would be going to knock on every door in the town to invite them to the church for that’s nights service. Not any of the church members, just us. That kind of sucked and made us think negatively of the church early. So when the girls showed up we were all soaking wet of sweat because it was 103 degrees outside that day. The girls had it easy because they got to miss what was probably the hardest part of the weekend. I am sure they will disagree but oh well.
After the first service that nights our hearts began to change and be less negative about the weekend. We started to see just how much this church needed revival. The group began to work together at least the best we can. What happens when you bring a bunch of strong leaders together in one place? Lots of madness and when you have someone like me who is super laid back and does not worry about things it can be hard for me to deal well with people that do worry about everything. So I began to avoid people like that like the plague . Also on a side note by the end of the first day Adam and I were in a really bad situation with the people we were staying with. The girls did not understand why we did not stay the second night because we did not explain everything but I think they should know we wouldn’t just not stay just for the heck of it. And the people we told everything to told us to not stay there and I trusted their opinions.
The second day came and I would like to call day two “Adams Day” because he planned everything in it. He did the backyard bible club pretty much by himself, myself and the others just followed his lead. That night he preached the message which was awesome and even had the pastor in tears. The only thing we really did was lead worship and hang out. Was a really good day and the only part that was bad was before Adam, ryan and myself decided to drive back to BG for the night, people were worried about the interp for the morning, but it takes a little faith to understand that this weekend was never about us and God was in control .
The third and final day was probably the most stressful of all. By that point stress had sunk in so much that it began to make us in essence lose sight of why we were there. I look at stress as a horrible sin that can consume the soul so much that it takes away from giving God glory and comes down to us as people worrying about us and what we get for doing something. Well back to the day, I am as I said earlier an easy going person and do not handle people well that are not the same(yes I need to work on it), so I try to avoid all things that might make me not be easy going. Even if that means being short with people so that I do not get consumed in things. Yes that’s bad but I am being honest, so just judge away.
Well the final day went well and we all knew it was time for us to separate and to be as far from each other as possible. It was a good experience and the church really needed it and I think most of us left thankful for the time we had there. It showed that even though we are not happy sometimes about doing things for God that in the end we are glad God was able to use us. But if we are still bitter after it is all said and done then we need to check our hearts because there may be a deeper issue there.
I have heard at the end of the weekend that I was the most negative one there, which is laughable to me but it is all good. I would disagree but it is all good, I was leading worship which means I made sure the flow and everything went well during the service. So who knows, I wasn’t the point person and was never told over the weekend that I was being negative. But oh well, I think God received the glory even though I think he deserved a lot more. If you made it this far congrats and it has been to long since I have blogged.
As Always,
Love You All
Brent
Well this last weekend myself and 5 other people went to lead a “Youth Revival” at a church in Rockport KY. I have to admit that going there was not really what any of us really wanted to do. Most of us were really confused and thought a million different things instead of what we were actually supposed to be doing there. This brought about some very negative attitudes going into the weekend. Myself and the three other guys got there in the early afternoon on Friday and found out that just the 4 of us would be going to knock on every door in the town to invite them to the church for that’s nights service. Not any of the church members, just us. That kind of sucked and made us think negatively of the church early. So when the girls showed up we were all soaking wet of sweat because it was 103 degrees outside that day. The girls had it easy because they got to miss what was probably the hardest part of the weekend. I am sure they will disagree but oh well.
After the first service that nights our hearts began to change and be less negative about the weekend. We started to see just how much this church needed revival. The group began to work together at least the best we can. What happens when you bring a bunch of strong leaders together in one place? Lots of madness and when you have someone like me who is super laid back and does not worry about things it can be hard for me to deal well with people that do worry about everything. So I began to avoid people like that like the plague . Also on a side note by the end of the first day Adam and I were in a really bad situation with the people we were staying with. The girls did not understand why we did not stay the second night because we did not explain everything but I think they should know we wouldn’t just not stay just for the heck of it. And the people we told everything to told us to not stay there and I trusted their opinions.
The second day came and I would like to call day two “Adams Day” because he planned everything in it. He did the backyard bible club pretty much by himself, myself and the others just followed his lead. That night he preached the message which was awesome and even had the pastor in tears. The only thing we really did was lead worship and hang out. Was a really good day and the only part that was bad was before Adam, ryan and myself decided to drive back to BG for the night, people were worried about the interp for the morning, but it takes a little faith to understand that this weekend was never about us and God was in control .
The third and final day was probably the most stressful of all. By that point stress had sunk in so much that it began to make us in essence lose sight of why we were there. I look at stress as a horrible sin that can consume the soul so much that it takes away from giving God glory and comes down to us as people worrying about us and what we get for doing something. Well back to the day, I am as I said earlier an easy going person and do not handle people well that are not the same(yes I need to work on it), so I try to avoid all things that might make me not be easy going. Even if that means being short with people so that I do not get consumed in things. Yes that’s bad but I am being honest, so just judge away.
Well the final day went well and we all knew it was time for us to separate and to be as far from each other as possible. It was a good experience and the church really needed it and I think most of us left thankful for the time we had there. It showed that even though we are not happy sometimes about doing things for God that in the end we are glad God was able to use us. But if we are still bitter after it is all said and done then we need to check our hearts because there may be a deeper issue there.
I have heard at the end of the weekend that I was the most negative one there, which is laughable to me but it is all good. I would disagree but it is all good, I was leading worship which means I made sure the flow and everything went well during the service. So who knows, I wasn’t the point person and was never told over the weekend that I was being negative. But oh well, I think God received the glory even though I think he deserved a lot more. If you made it this far congrats and it has been to long since I have blogged.
As Always,
Love You All
Brent
Thursday, June 24, 2010
A Tangled Web
I have been thinking a lot more then usual as of late. About many different things from where I belong in the church, to girls, to just random other crap that in the end does not matter.
About Church
As many of you know I have been a youth pastor and recently resigned from that church. I will not speak ill of the church on here so you can just go on and assume whatever you want to about that situation. Yes I am a very strong willed person but as much as people do not think I do, I do know when to be quiet and how to work with others. But I am a firm believer in some times God will call us to things that will be tough and may not end the way we want but it is how we stand during it all that matters. I still love God and even though I do believe that many church need to be revived and actually let the holy spirit work in them, i do still love the church. I am just currently trying to find out where I should go.
About Girls:
Do you really think I am about to talk about this on my blog? All i need is people trying to read into my words to try to figure out what I am thinking or what girl is on my mind. What am I in 6th grade? Of course I am a guy of course I find girls attractive but I am trying really hard to not put stock in that. Plus i graduate in Decemeber so no need to care to much right now.
This world is interesting and this is a little bit of what I am thinking about recently. If you could see in my brain it would seem a lot deeper then this and a lot more like a tangled web but I guess it is a good thing you cant. Also it is very late and I am tired so forget that fact that this may not make a lot of sense.
About Church
As many of you know I have been a youth pastor and recently resigned from that church. I will not speak ill of the church on here so you can just go on and assume whatever you want to about that situation. Yes I am a very strong willed person but as much as people do not think I do, I do know when to be quiet and how to work with others. But I am a firm believer in some times God will call us to things that will be tough and may not end the way we want but it is how we stand during it all that matters. I still love God and even though I do believe that many church need to be revived and actually let the holy spirit work in them, i do still love the church. I am just currently trying to find out where I should go.
About Girls:
Do you really think I am about to talk about this on my blog? All i need is people trying to read into my words to try to figure out what I am thinking or what girl is on my mind. What am I in 6th grade? Of course I am a guy of course I find girls attractive but I am trying really hard to not put stock in that. Plus i graduate in Decemeber so no need to care to much right now.
This world is interesting and this is a little bit of what I am thinking about recently. If you could see in my brain it would seem a lot deeper then this and a lot more like a tangled web but I guess it is a good thing you cant. Also it is very late and I am tired so forget that fact that this may not make a lot of sense.
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